`god's creation. (:
Saturday, March 05, 2005 call me unlucky or what?
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first
-money
then
-handphone
yrrrh ... forget it. i'm not talking about it.
ass him.
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005 here are some pictures again(:
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its vincent and joshua.
group of guys.
mostly the people of faith. but i'm sorry cant see pohling's head.):
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Tuesday, February 22, 2005 here are some pictures NOT all which i took with him.
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yea but i like them all. (:
yar. and i love this picture. hah ...
(: thats vincent. we at the airport
you took this of me. at RELC
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Sunday, February 20, 2005 just recieved your call.
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tho it wasnt as long as yst but yeah.
i controlled i had to.
haha just finish doing my home econ coursework. came back just now with charissa cause went out with her to holland.
well ... it isnt that bad after all. you're gonna call me once a week and we still msg but its abit ex but yea. i'll pray for you. remember to take care.
will wait for your next call. (:
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Saturday, February 19, 2005 its takes time.
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yesterday after tuition talked to ah pao. and saw his display pic and plus he told me stuff i started tearing again. i tried not to think but ...
even when i was on my way to my aunt's house for steamboat i teared.
when i was alone in my cousin's room i started crying.
then i recieved an sms from his sis saying that he touched down and all along i was talking to ah pao on the phone. then we tried calling his hp but it was either off or nobody picked up. then later about 8 plus goin g to 9. vincent called me haha was damn happy. but while talking i cried. i miss him i din know what to say to him. but we talked and all. hah (:
but then never did i know i teared on my home too. sighhs ):
then when i return home, i went straight to bed and cried and cried.
and cried myself to sleep.
was hoping to see you online i woke up 8 plus to see if you were but you were not but that didnt upset me. i saw your msg.
am waiting for your call tonight.(:
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Friday, February 18, 2005 first it was debbie leaving then shalini transferred then now its vincent. everybody seems to be leaving. sighhs*
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the UNEXPECTED.
he left and all so sudden. i wasnt really prepared for the sudden disappearance. imagine since sec 1 till now we've been through a lot. all misunderstandings, small arguments but i've never hold it to heart. well i just came back from the airport. he came downstairs my house to meet me in the morning like at 6 and went to the airport together.
known each other for -3 years and 2 months.
remember sec 1 though wasnt really close but did sms and hangout after school.
secondary 2. we were seating partners and that brought us close. recalling we would draw each other's hands.
many things happened that year but we were still friends eventually.
sec 3. when we chose subjects we got into different classes but yet we were still close. had many things. remember the rings? the necklaces? and those shirts i got for you. we would often meet before going to school. have breakfast at kopitiam. there was once we went to jalan kayu in the morning to eat prata. sometimes would accompany me home. always sms-ing each other. would often talk/sms thru the night. always joking around. hangout. took neoprints together. the camp when our first hug. came my house to talk.
secondary4. would hangout. accompany me on the phone when on my way home. accompany you to take the test. came my house to dye hair. went to watch movie "seed of chucky". went to school together. sometimes would take bus home together. accompany me not to eat during recess. alomost every hour sms-ing. took a lot of pictures together.
all these were memories you left me. all these years we were always there for each other. problem-sharing.
when i knew it was my last time i could see you after the 2 years. it was saddening. yar everyone knew i was going to cry. when i saw andy crying i couldnt hold back and cried. knew it was of no use, everyone too. went over to valerie and his mum and hugged them. it was comforting and his mum was nice and said if there's anything i could call themand so exachanged no with his sis. but still his gone returning only after 2 years. as i said i'll pray for you and yes i will. i'll just have to adapt without calling vincent in class of FAITH and not sms-ing to the name VINCENT and cant dial the no 96276997 but calling out to him in my dreams and just wait-
after sending him off to the gate. went up to the gallery hoping to see his plane fly but there was some renovation. i just stood there crying. and then he called me. elated but crying i couldnt say anything but told him to take care. then again he called me and said that he was boarding then again i couldnt say anything then he msg me and told me to take care and good luck and i just said to sms me when he reach hope he does. now the only thing i could do is just wait-
never ever mention his name in school nor talk about him in front of me please. THANK YOU. guess its best that way.
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005 this entry shall be specially dedicated to vincent:
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the entry which you actually prayed its not stupid but the way you think is.
lets put it. GOD wont blame you if you actually dont pray to him. he'll always live in you. he has always been there not only for you but for all of us. always from up above looking down ... we're his children. he aalways hear our prayers, yes he does. each time i prayed for you he seem to answer every of it. he's always so powerful. just close your eyes and think of GOD and you'll see him. the prayer below goes to you:
dear lord,
hoping that you'll watch over everyone of us and give us the strength each day no matter what happens,give us the courage to stand up, yes lord. and dear lord i pray for vincent's test that he actually score and go overseas and may you watch over him where ever he is. pray that he'll actually feel your prescence and ours too so that he wont be so lonely, at least he knows somebody there's with him to help him, to guide him. lord may you help vincent to see the rights and wrongs so that he wont do the wrong things and that may he hear your voice each time he's confuse, hoping you'll tell him, lead him to the right path so that he'll never have regrets. praise the lord. all this i pray in jesus name, AMEN.
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okay. i seriously want to watch PHANTOM OF THE OPERA. lol.
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anyway ... i'm proud and happy of MYSELF. stepfanie chen .. i practically decorated the front board and i like it a lot. hah yea.
i've been going school early these few days. to the bus stop to meeet vincent then go school. yea ... and i haven got vincent's present. NO i only got half the present, there's another half which i'm finding then it'll be a complete one. (: and its gonna be a big present kays. YOU should feel honoured. YES you do huh. righht ... and so..
on monday .. accompanied vincent to take his 2nd test. OH MY! the waiting was so long we turned up early and was suppose to be at 4.30? in the end pass 4.30 and we waited for what? one and a half hour. i was so bored and tired like what the hell. so did homework and the rest of the time i just sat there. yeaa .. vincent came out and he was like saying he like freaked out. he was scared i mean who wouldnt? righht yea. then we actually went town before going to RELC- where vincent took his test. yea to buy my school shoes. har .. yupps.
tml's lesson is boring yea totally. today's lesson too. har .. only like what? 3 sub but it took the whole day. yrrrh might as well dont go to school. but there's one thing. I LOVE MATHS! its soo damn fun. i love it mann. hah i dont mind doing the same question like what 3 times? haha .. yea if only i chose A maths but that'll be so terrible huh. well too bad.
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